A letter Of The Misfit

Today I cant stop myself from writing this in my blog. I am writing neither to plead for the love that was once unrequited nor to please the crowd with the way I felt before. It is only to do with the craving of my heart and I think I am not mistaken to listen to my heart.

DEAR MY UNKNOWN ANGEL,
I hope you are all fine up there with a smile on your face. May be you are mistaken or may be I was, that the things drifted apart with the pain in my heart. You have got the purest heart and an admirable disposition. I can vividly remember your smile and laughter. Your smile was an inspiration for me, though it was no better than a beguiling guise. The greatest moment for me was when you call by my name with that sweet melodious tone. My heart leaped when I beheld you. I jumped with joy when we played like those playful kids. I know your beauty is not fake because your heart is as beautiful as aforesaid. I can make out from the way you talk and the way you behave. May be too much of nagging isn't good. May be I was mistaken. Or may be it was lords plan that we cant pave our road together. The two year of stay together was short lived and I loved the fact that I cant figure you exactly. The more I knew you, the more mysterious you became. So I guess you are my unknown angel.

Your image keeps on haunting me and my heart clung to your youthful disposition. I got to experience the strangest in the feelings and extremities of an emotions. Love that I loved with a childhoods faith. The pain of separation and the joy of being together. I knew than that the love is most painful thing, yet so alluring. I believe that there is holiness in the hearts affection. But you were always matter of fact. May be you have taken my heart for granted. You have let my heart bleed to death. The world was dark and I was so aggressive because you blocked the way to my future. Past was painful and my future all shaken. I have done so many crazy things but I don't regret all those wrong doings. We make mistakes but at last we learn.

There ain't any reasons that I fall for you because love don't need any evidential  proof. But there are many reasons that I feared of losing you. I don't want to share those.
I now believe that there is purpose of you coming in my life. But now you are neither coming in my dream nor I can use you as my muse. You are gone forever, now not in my heart either. I know you will regret but don't let me know. I don't want to share your tears now.

THANK YOU
(MISFIT)