A letter to my friend.

Sometimes I feel too hard to write things down. Sometimes words aren't coming right. But I shall write because I can convey you more. I shall write because it is hard for me to write. The more I try to write, the more difficult it becomes. But the more I write, the more happier I becomes too. This is irony of life. The more we try to do things perfectly, the more difficult it appears. But sometimes I write and when I read that over and over again, the more meaningful my words appears. That time is the happiest moment for me; a heaven in the earth.

A maiden writer who is stuck between words to express and words not to express. The feeling of love,care,rage and anger. The feeling of flesh and blood: just ordinary. An amatuer writer who is deadly in love with someone too modest. Of million girls I fall for someone so modest and that has made all the difference. When my words aren't pleasing and when it seems too weak, it means you are beyond the words I express. Either accept my follies or curse me. Because I am an accursed guy and a selfish ill writer. Hope every wind that sweeps your charming face and every whispers that you hear be my love and care.

To my dear crony,
Did you ever fall in love with someone? Did you ever hear someone screaming for your love? Did you ever think which kind of guy am I? How many times you think of me in a day? But today neither I am screaming for your love nor it is an obligation for you to love me. I have fallen for someone before and my life has gone astray. I experienced pain but I don't have slightest of idea of an emotion what most of us desire. I know one-sided love is not good. The more I tried to be with her the more we drifted apart.I don't want to explain too much to you either. I know things will follow as I expect if we are meant to be together.

But you make me feel good when I am not doing fine.You make me realize that it is not good to do bad things. You understands every single puzzles of life. And sometimes I feels like the feelings are growing stronger. This world,a dark world do not belong to me. But when I realize it has already became my habit. I want some one to say its okay. I want someone to embrace me. I want someone to be my redemption.

Don't always go for perfection. Fall for someone not because you love his good things, but because you accept his follies. Because every human being have that untouched nature; very true,very polite and very caring. Don't ever give that to a wrong person. And every person have that madness and that insanity, a barbaric way of doing things. Don't imprison yourself of what others may think of you and enjoy life. A life is only once.

You know I am waiting for you to answer my only question. And that day will be the happiest moment of my life. But never answer me if you doubt me and if yourself is in hesitation. That day if ever you whisper your inner heart,if ever you say that you truly love me, we will elope from this world. We don't belong here. This world is so dangerous and people around are too scary. Lets go to heaven, a place you always dream about.

Thanking you
Your friend(Nubay)

A letter Of The Misfit

Today I cant stop myself from writing this in my blog. I am writing neither to plead for the love that was once unrequited nor to please the crowd with the way I felt before. It is only to do with the craving of my heart and I think I am not mistaken to listen to my heart.

DEAR MY UNKNOWN ANGEL,
I hope you are all fine up there with a smile on your face. May be you are mistaken or may be I was, that the things drifted apart with the pain in my heart. You have got the purest heart and an admirable disposition. I can vividly remember your smile and laughter. Your smile was an inspiration for me, though it was no better than a beguiling guise. The greatest moment for me was when you call by my name with that sweet melodious tone. My heart leaped when I beheld you. I jumped with joy when we played like those playful kids. I know your beauty is not fake because your heart is as beautiful as aforesaid. I can make out from the way you talk and the way you behave. May be too much of nagging isn't good. May be I was mistaken. Or may be it was lords plan that we cant pave our road together. The two year of stay together was short lived and I loved the fact that I cant figure you exactly. The more I knew you, the more mysterious you became. So I guess you are my unknown angel.

Your image keeps on haunting me and my heart clung to your youthful disposition. I got to experience the strangest in the feelings and extremities of an emotions. Love that I loved with a childhoods faith. The pain of separation and the joy of being together. I knew than that the love is most painful thing, yet so alluring. I believe that there is holiness in the hearts affection. But you were always matter of fact. May be you have taken my heart for granted. You have let my heart bleed to death. The world was dark and I was so aggressive because you blocked the way to my future. Past was painful and my future all shaken. I have done so many crazy things but I don't regret all those wrong doings. We make mistakes but at last we learn.

There ain't any reasons that I fall for you because love don't need any evidential  proof. But there are many reasons that I feared of losing you. I don't want to share those.
I now believe that there is purpose of you coming in my life. But now you are neither coming in my dream nor I can use you as my muse. You are gone forever, now not in my heart either. I know you will regret but don't let me know. I don't want to share your tears now.

THANK YOU
(MISFIT)