Sometimes I feel too hard to write things down. Sometimes words aren't coming right. But I shall write because I can convey you more. I shall write because it is hard for me to write. The more I try to write, the more difficult it becomes. But the more I write, the more happier I becomes too. This is irony of life. The more we try to do things perfectly, the more difficult it appears. But sometimes I write and when I read that over and over again, the more meaningful my words appears. That time is the happiest moment for me; a heaven in the earth.
A maiden writer who is stuck between words to express and words not to express. The feeling of love,care,rage and anger. The feeling of flesh and blood: just ordinary. An amatuer writer who is deadly in love with someone too modest. Of million girls I fall for someone so modest and that has made all the difference. When my words aren't pleasing and when it seems too weak, it means you are beyond the words I express. Either accept my follies or curse me. Because I am an accursed guy and a selfish ill writer. Hope every wind that sweeps your charming face and every whispers that you hear be my love and care.
To my dear crony,
Did you ever fall in love with someone? Did you ever hear someone screaming for your love? Did you ever think which kind of guy am I? How many times you think of me in a day? But today neither I am screaming for your love nor it is an obligation for you to love me. I have fallen for someone before and my life has gone astray. I experienced pain but I don't have slightest of idea of an emotion what most of us desire. I know one-sided love is not good. The more I tried to be with her the more we drifted apart.I don't want to explain too much to you either. I know things will follow as I expect if we are meant to be together.
But you make me feel good when I am not doing fine.You make me realize that it is not good to do bad things. You understands every single puzzles of life. And sometimes I feels like the feelings are growing stronger. This world,a dark world do not belong to me. But when I realize it has already became my habit. I want some one to say its okay. I want someone to embrace me. I want someone to be my redemption.
Don't always go for perfection. Fall for someone not because you love his good things, but because you accept his follies. Because every human being have that untouched nature; very true,very polite and very caring. Don't ever give that to a wrong person. And every person have that madness and that insanity, a barbaric way of doing things. Don't imprison yourself of what others may think of you and enjoy life. A life is only once.
You know I am waiting for you to answer my only question. And that day will be the happiest moment of my life. But never answer me if you doubt me and if yourself is in hesitation. That day if ever you whisper your inner heart,if ever you say that you truly love me, we will elope from this world. We don't belong here. This world is so dangerous and people around are too scary. Lets go to heaven, a place you always dream about.
Thanking you
Your friend(Nubay)
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